Let not any other Vishu……..
I don’t know in these days I never get time to read, write or infact even to think also; not because am very busy,I don’t know I got stuck up with many things or not interested to do anything. Life is so monotonous, mechanical, I feel. I don’t know festivals also could not make much magic with me. This was the first Vishu, that I have not celebrated or infact never felt like “its Vishu!” Everything went as usual and fortunately or unfortunately its working day too.
No one woke me up in the morning! Instead of my mom’s call, I woke up by the alarm sound. I didn’t woke up and simply lied down, trying hard to found out if there would have been a cracking sound! Nope! It had not, I know coz in TN they celebrates only Deewali. And yeah Tamil New year is different from our Vishu too interms of rituals and all.
Though I am several hundred miles away from my native land, I could hear the sounds of crackers; I could visualize the vishukani ….. Yes! I always feel that magic of mind! Not magic, might be escapism or some trick I would say! My mind winds back to the celebrations / occasions/small, kutty incidents from my childhood, when I go numb and I don’t know somehow I feel relaxed and it was not different that time also!
I was literally experience that feeling, that spirit, all those rituals including vishukani, kayneetam and all….. How my mom used to wake me up before the crack of dawn, how she lead all of us before the lord of krishna! How irritated I was when my mom’s hand closed firmly over my eyes to prevent the mischievous peeping in between! And yes! Of course how eagerly we were waiting for the Vishu to get money! Even if it was a small amount, we were happy! And how happily we used to count the money to know who got the maximum amount and all! This time I have got kayneetam from a single person and that itself is a big amount! But that ten rupee notes and a few coins gave me so much joy I feel. Yes! it is not the amount, but the spirit, union that adds the happiness!!! … My thoughts go wildly like this only… whenever I ponder over my child hood….
It’s high time to wake up, I know, as it is a working day.. I have to prepare something and then rush to the office as any other day. In between my busy work in kitchen, I received a call from my mom, my cousins and yeah they sounded excited with the sound of crackers in the background, noises of children playing in and around….. I really wish that if I had been there.. one among those children... .. I wish if I can be there at least for the next vishu.. Or rather I wish let not any other vishu be like this without my family, my dear and near ones!!!!
